I cant live like this anymore

I need a job.
I hate what I am doing now.
I must get a real job.

I must get it.
I live with that dream.
That is my life, my future.

I must be successful.
Must know how to act.
They did not study as well as me but they were more successful.
I could not bear it.

I must find a job by any means.
That is the only way to improve my E.
My problem now is not listening but speaking.


I must talk a lot more.
I fed up with this life.

I was most down in my life.