That stupid thought destroys my life

I must change to the positive thinking.
Never have that kind of avenge thinking.
It will never become true and only destroy my life.
It is negative.
It is hatred.
It must be eliminated.
I love her, not myself.
That makes the difference.
If that is the real love.
I should not expect her to be sorry.
Never in my mind.
Should not lie.
Lie is a negative energy.
Lie is the result of Fear.
Fear of losing face.
Never lie.
Get rid of that stupid thought twisting my life.
Love. Positive.
I still want her.
Do not try to bury that.